Monday, October 06, 2008

*Sigh* (AE&D... PTMI)

So... Today was my post op check-up. And guess what?

My specialist looked at my eye, then sort of sighed and said, "Ah!" in barely more than a whisper. That kind of a reaction is never good from a doctor. And it told me that my suspicions were correct.

You see, over the weekend my eye has been bleeding again, and quite sore and gunky. So - especially when I woke up in the night with it hurting, and woke up this morning to find the area around the eye and my pillow covered in blood and gunk - I was almost certain I'd end up back in hospital. So certain, in fact, that I left my bank card with Kelly "just in case" and very nearly packed up a bag to take with me (but instead decided to just tell Kelly to be ready to pack one at short notice).

Well...

My specialist grabbed a couple of tubes of those anasthetic drops and proceeded to squeeze both tubes in to my eye so he could make sure it was definately numb enough for him to have a good look. Then he pulled out the protective shell thing and confirmed my suspicions about his previous reaction.

The implant is very exposed... Even more so than last time for some reason. So guess where I'm going tomorrow? Yup! That's right! Back in to hospital. *Sigh*

He wants to "take a look" with me under anasthetic to see if he can figure out a simple explanation for it not working. I told him that was fine but that if either he can't find a simple and easily remedied solution, or if he finds one but it still doesn't work, then I've told him straight that I've had enough and this is his last chance to try keeping the implant in. If it fails this time then I want him to take it out, let me heal in peace, and sod the "better cosmetic result."

He asked why, so I told him that I was getting fed up of being "pulled about" and wanted all this sorted out and over and done with. Then I added that I wasn't entirely confident in the ability of the hospital to take proper care of me either. He asked what I meant (he wasn't involved in - or aware of - what happened during my last trip to hospital). So I told him about it.

He said it was "disgraceful" for any patient to be treated that way, and was "even more dispicable" because of the fact I have "more specialist needs" which needed to be catered for, but weren't. And he actually told us that we should put a formal complaint down in writing so that - even if I don't end up back in hospital - nobody else has to be put through what I was.

It's bad when even the surgeon is advising you write and complain, isn't it?

On a slightly more possitive note...

We got the results from the swob they took of the gunk from my eye when I was rushed in to A&E two weeks ago. Apparently nothing grew from the gunk on the swob, which means we caught the infection quick enough for it not to cause any problems or find its way in to my brain.

So, that's something comforting at least. :)

Anyway...

I would have gone in tonight, but since my op isn't until tomorrow evening I said no. So I'm going in the morning instead. I've got to be there for 10:00 am, which means getting up early enough to be bathed, dressed and ready to leave at 9:00 am.

I don't know how long after the op I'll be back online. I've got a couple of posts scheduled for later in the month though, and I'll be on as soon as I'm well enough to let you know how I'm doing.

In the meantime...

Stay safe, get well soon (if you're sick), stay well (if you're not sick), and so on and so forth. :)

Tori

12 comments:

Intense Guy said...

Oh Tori... how life toments you - and how brave you are and need to be.

*Hugs*

I truly hope the old saying that the "third time is the charm" applies here and this is the last of it.

Get well soonest - we all will be thinking about you.

AliceKay said...

I was really hoping your last trip to the hospital would get you healing the way you should be healing. I'm sorry to hear you need to go back to the hospital again. I'm with Iggy...I hope that old saying holds true, too. Will be keeping you in my thoughts and prayers, Tori. *hugs*

ChicagoLady said...

Good luck, Tori. I certainly hope they treat you better this time. Hopefully the surgeon will be able to figure out what's going on in the socket and get it straight so you can go home and you can finally be healed.

Celticspirit said...

Good luck Tori! I hope this time you're trip to the hospital is a success. Take care and hugs to you.

LadyStyx said...

oh geez...*HUGZ*

Hoping this is the last trip in and theings get sorted out properly so you can heal in peace this time.

MarmiteToasty said...

It was just so lovely to actually get to chat with you on the phone this morning, before you go back into hospital...... and jebus, you is well welsh LMFAO

You know you are in me thoughts as you once again go into hospital.... love and hugs....

x

Jess said...

Oh goodness - poor Tori!
I'm totally agreeing with you on the implant - if it doesn't work again then scrap it.
I hope so much that you are going to get better.
And good lcuk with the getting up early. Although I have to get up at the horrendous hour of 8 weekdays. Ik!

Kati said...

Awww Tori, I'm so sorry you're having to go back in hospital. I hope the nurses and anesthesiologist aren't so gooberish this time. You're in my thoughts & prayers, sweety!!!

AliceKay said...

Just wanted to let you know that I've been thinking about you and wondered how things are going for you. *hugs*

Intense Guy said...

Just stopped by to say "Hello" and let you know I was thinking about you.

Hope you have recovered from the operation and things are going smoothly.

KAYLEE said...

I love you :) i am so sorry you are going through this :(

Tori_z said...

Thanks all. :)